Well I am sitting basically doing nothing on a Saturday night. I have tapped every web 2.0 app that I can in order to amuse myself and still did not find any satisfaction. I am spontaneous and random most of the time. My moods and thought flow like the tide. I am a forty something trans who has decided to put off transition indefinately as I will stay with my family. I will say that I was ever so close and then a blog post turned it around for me. I really have to hand it to Cali, a woman who I will probably never meet in person, who I will probably never talk too, who completely changed my life or at least the life I know. Yes I am married, yes I have kids, and yes I am successful in the world. I am doing the best I can with what I have. I hold it together most days, and suffer many others. In the end I do not know what I will do, I would like to say I will stay the coarse, but at times I say I would like to make a 180 and feel complete.
What does it mean to be complete, and does one have to transition to do it. Many will say yes and a few will say no. Only the individual knows what is right for them, I believe we know what is right, but try to do what is acceptable. I will share my thought on my transition and my life in general. Lets see where it all goes...
