L.A. Times Sportswriter Mike Penner (Christine Daniels) died.

a sad story...

This past Saturday a sports writer for the LA Times who had transitioned and the detransitioned was found dead due to what appears as a suicide. I picked this up from Lori's blog (http://lorisrevival.blogspot.com/2009/11/loss-of-one-of-our-own-la-times.html) and was deeply saddened by the news at the loss of life here. I can say I wish she would not have killed herself. I wish she would've at least left some type of message somewhere as to the why of it all, but then maybe she didn't know the why, only that she was suffering. I am sure we can all relate, I know I can, as I have thought similar thoughts in the past, I always worked passed them. Its the whole not religious thing and the whole when your gone you're gone idea that plays into effect with me. I can sort of in a weak way identify with how difficult it would be to transition, but then to transition back. In some of the readings about her, a person said there must have been some tremendous pressure to transition back. I would imagine that her suicide was related to the whole gender controversy going on inside. We can all speculate about what happened and what was going on, I am sure we can put ourselves in her place briefly and debate what it was that caused this tragedy, then again maybe it was something completely different and maybe it is our own selfishness that leads us to believe it was all related to gender. Anyway in the end I have shed my tear, I have taken a moment of personal reflection, and I am grateful at the moment for the fact that I am not suffering so. I am also grateful for all of you who read this, that you are still able to read this and that you have not done anything wrong. If you ever find yourself thinking of it, take a moment and really think about what it means, in the end you shouldn't end your life, but you should begin to live it the way you would like too. Peace be with you.

B