a new year

Well its a new year and new expectations await. I have taken a bit of time off up till now and really don't know why. I want to say it is because I had nothing really to say. I watched many from afar and would occasionally put a comment in here or there. One thing I know is that my tide rise and fall still continues to happen, and there are sometimes when I can ignore it, and it will seemingly go away for a short time. At the same time when I am more active, then I think about the whole transition thing more. I am sure my wife would say, "well then just stay away!" Although that never works either. Sometimes I will max myself out on gender surfing and that also makes it so it has no power over me either. Can't seem to find that happy medium.

I see that autogynophelia (AGP) is starting to grab more attention on the blogosphere. I am seeing more TG going over to that camp. I must say that I have visited there too, and can find many similarities within myself in relating with that. I see that some gender challenged individuals really take issue with AGP and to me those are some of the ones who really need to look closer into themselves as I am sure they may find they relate more than they like too, although I am sure that is why they get so fired up with AGP.

For me in my real world, my job is a bore, and I am having challenges staying interested as I am not challenged and a lot of my work seems meaningless. I am applying for different positions in my organization and outside my organization. I will say that I will always look for those companies and leaders who are a bit more liberal, as you never know when the mood will strike to transition.

I don't think I will return to school, I am schooled out, although there are some fun things I would like to do. I did get an iPod for Christmas and I want to spend more time on that, although I already spend too much time playing "Angery Birds & Risk" both of which I have conquered.

Family life is ever busy, having three kiddos takes a lot of time with extracurricular activities. My kids are really world class, excelling in what they take on, they get much of their creativity and leadership from me, and it has served them all well. I will say that it will sometimes make things at home challenging with having all leaders in a room as no one wants to follow, and since I am the oldest I demand they follow me, although I still loose from time to time. I want to add it is getting more challenging with electronics and having smart kids around, and me not leaving a digital trail. I do often wonder if they know who I am, as it would not surprise me, and many times I have wanted to sit them down and explain it all, but I am afraid my wife would have kittens fall from her uterus if I did.

Well that's about it for now, my New Years resolutions? Well, loose 10 to 20 pounds, change careers, master my iPod and use it professionally, lastly maybe get out as my fem self, I haven't done that in over a year, but long too on rare occasion. Yes I should strive for four times a year, thats not too much I don't think, or is it?
As always thanks for taking the time, and showing interest. I do appreciate all the feed back provided. I appreciate you being there and sharing a part of you with me. I hope you have a great year also and I hope you accomplish what you set out too do.


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